June 24, 2009

So I really miss blogging! I will continue to back blog...but I'm going to start keeping up with my blog as much as I can-hopefully a nearly daily basis.

Today is June 24th, we woke up later then usual-930am (I'm not complaining, being is we are 2nd shifters, this is a great time, but my kids don't like to sleep once the sun is up-GRRRR, lol.) We had our 2nd to last Family Support Specialist appointment today at 1030a. The family support specialist is the "counselor" we've been working with for the year that we've been in Marriage for Keeps. I gave her a wedding invitation-only fitting as she's been such an intricate part of out growing, and healing process I figured-but she told me since she's a counselor, she can't come. :( I was in tears. I mean I understand why...mentally, but emotionally, I was heart broken. I asked if I could appeal to her bosses or something. She said they had a meeting later today and she'd talk to them about it. :( We have one more appointment...July 8th...It's been one year in the program! David and I have come such a long way. Mostly I feel DAVID has come a long way. I was telling Jamie today (our FSS), a year ago, it was like I was living with a mannequin, or another kid. Today, I feel like I have a friend, a partner. He gets, NOW, that I want to hear his opinions and thoughts and he communicates with me. I did not go into Marriage for Keeps, thinking anything was "wrong" with me, I went thinking it was all him and "he needed to learn to communicate". Boy was I wrong. I've learned so much. They don't teach you this stuff in school or growing up. How do you get a generation (our parents') where "kids are to be seen and not heard"- to teach communication skills? My communication consisted of doing doing doing, until I blow up. You aren't "taught" the "speaker/listener technique" or about "doing your part". I just am so grateful to God for sending MFK and Fireproof to us and for Chris and Bonnie taking us to "our new church". There are so many blessings in my life right now. I don't even know where to start counting!

Anyway, David has to work 6p-6a for the next few days, so we ended up going to Walmart after our appointment. We bought some shelving for the house and Ben a new Bike-an ADULT bike (26 inch) with hand brakes!!!!! and a new helmet. When we got home, kids ate and napped, I wasted all my time on the computer and David got ready for his "excercise" (it's where they practice war situations, which is why he's on 12 hour night shifts thru Sunday). Ben played on daddy's puter. Then the kids woke up and had ice cream for with chocolate "Magic Shell" for snack. After David left for work, I set up the kids' turtle pool with water and got the sprinkler going. While they played (and Ben worked on cleaning his room), I stamped wedding invitations. After I was done and ready to go, we rode our bikes around base-hand delivered 4 invites (got adult conversation with a couple of my friends I delivered too! That was a bonus!!!! My friend Mike is back from the desert and they bought a new car-Jeep, sweet!) and put 60 in the mailbox at the front of the base (we live in back of the base). Then, came home, baths, bed and Ben and I assembled a shelving unit, and set it up in his room and cleaned his room. AHHHH, it looks great (I am hoping to get to the "Bionicle boxes" one of these days and sort them into smaller stackable containers)! Some day I will get my house in order, really I will! LOL I then put away our Walmart trip and stamped and assembled more invites and blogged a bunch and now I'm headed to bed!